After the hurt of Rob, I decided to knock internet dating on the head.  I removed my profiles and vowed I'd never go back to it.  I concentrated on my singles club, not to find a man, but to just enjoy other people's company who were all in the same boat as me.  I had started acting as a "host" for the club, which meant I was the person to meet and greet at an event, I would make sure the evening ran as smoothly as possible and if we were eating, I would make sure everyone paid their share of the bill and feedback to the club as to how the evening went.  The perks of doing this was I got my evening free.  What a result.  Here I was, a single mum, with not much money spare and I was managing to go out, enjoy myself and not having to pay for it!  I really enjoyed the hosting and started to host more and more events.  I was very rarely in at weekends anymore and it all kept my mind off him!

Some months passed and I had been getting on wth my life as you do, when I decided to visit Tesco to do my big shop.  This was a strange decision as I very rarely go to Tesco, but this day I decided to go there and who should I see, but Rob.  I felt instantly sick, my stomach was in knots and I had to get out of there.  I don't know if he saw me, but I couldn't hang around to find out.  I knew if I saw him I would either hit him or cry.  I got in my car and burst into tears.  What had this guy done to me - I was a wreck.

There was a part of me that wanted to go up to him just to see his reaction, but it was probably best I didn't do that, as he may have snubbed me, which I think would have destroyed me.  I came home and decided I needed to find myself someone, even short term to help me forget him and get myself back on track.  I turned the computer on and redid my profiles!  I was back on-line.